Hidden Confusion

I'm so undeserving of you…
I didn't even give you a chance...
You're my best friend
And yes, I'm very aware that you have feeling for me
I had an open opportunity
You even asked
I never answered…
And I ended up going back to him…
I don't like you in the way that you like me
I don't share the same feeling
But I should have given you a chance
Maybe my feelings would have changed
The least I can do is give you an answer…
I'm drowning in my bottomless guilt
And the pain of my heart is endless
It's being ripped out
Stabbed
And left for some sort of beast to take it away
I need to see you again…
But I don't know how to present myself to you…
You've been there for me
Through everything…
And what have I given you?
Pain and the suspense of an answer
I don't know how you can deal with me
Or still love me the way you do…
I've been hurting ever since that day
But I just don't know what to do anymore…
It all hurts so much…
I guess I never realized how much I really cared about you until…
Until the accident…
When you refused to listen to me…
And you walk into my house expecting to see me
When the fact you didn't listen to me put me in a position
Causing me to have a breakdown…
Honey, I just don't know anymore…