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Imagine being me
Imagine us switching places
Well think about this
I wake up from a damn nightmare everyday
I find some sort of motivation to get up and get myself all ready and prepared to face the day
Though I drag my feet because the pain I hold within feels like weights on my shoulders
I finish up and then wait for about ten minutes in the cold and snowy outside world
Wishing I could stay forever, because my heart is about as cold as it is outside
I sit with peers whom majority of them I don't like
Finally arriving at the jail of a "school"
Spending about the first fifteen minutes with the one person you try to get your dirty hands on
I lug myself through four classes with people I utterly despise
In the middle of that I go to a crowded yet excruciatingly lonely lunch
After suffering through a pitiful school session, I get home I immediately run to my only safe place in the downstairs bathroom and lock my door
I rummage through the drawers in panic
Searching as if I wa
..:Soul x Maka:..February 13th, 2009, 11:50pm
Maka and Soul were sitting on the stone wall after taking out another Kishin soul.
"Oh, man, that was pretty intense, huh Soul?" Maka said with a smile, as she wiped a small drop of blood from her cheek.
"Nah that was easy. You're just weak," He said, sticking his tongue out and putting his arm around her.
"Hey, you don't have to swing this weight around all the time," she said, poking at his stomach.
They both made a small laugh and gave each other a hug. They let go and sat in silence, Soul's arm still around Maka. Soul hung his head over and twirled his thumbs as Maka was still looking up at the moon. He suddenly lifted his head just a tiny bit, "You look so beautiful with the moonlight shining on your face."
Maka turned her head to face Soul. She was a little bit shocked, but she slightly blushed.
"What?" she grinned and punched him in the shoulder, "You ja
washed away with the rainThe rain was warm against my pale skin
There was a chilly breeze
But the rain contradicted the temperature and took over
The scent of the rain was wonderful
It was surrounding me in the scent of nature, warm and dirt-filled
Drops of blood hit the concrete and turned it slowly into blotches of crimson
My wrist was spilling a violet-rose color
There was so much liquid, gushing, flowing from my skin
You could smell the coppery, rusty smell of it very strongly
I stood there in the pouring rain
Soaking in my own blood, along with Mothers tears
Holding an old fashioned Gillette razor
It was brand new
Sharp, shiny, and now used
For purposes other than shaving, of course
I dropped the small rectangle of purpousful stainless steel and walked
In my cami, jeans, and my own bare feet
I didn't have a set location
But there was no way I could stay in that house any longer
I ventured foreward
Unaware of what destiny lied ahead of me
The neighbors stared from their windows
Watching me with cold eyes
My new beginning"Goodnight, mom."
I dressed out of my regular skirt and top, and into my nightgown
Tomorrow would be a long day, and I needed sleep
I closed my eyes and drifted into a light slumber
I need to change
This life doesn't feel right anymore
Try something different tomorrow...
Those are the thoughts that constantly replayed in my head as I was sleeping
I woke up in the morning covered in sweat
It got hot while sleeping
I opened my window and headed toward my closet while rubbing my eyes
I was going to try something new today
I reached out for my black tube top
And in the other hand grabbed my Black&Grey striped cardi
I headed towards the dresser and stubbed my toe while digging for my pair of black skinny jeans
I finally got all dressed and got my black Converse on
I think I'm going to ride my bike to school today
I went to the garage, piece of Nutella'd toast in my mouth, and road off into the morning darkness
It was dark and groggy outside, especially for 7am
Somebody I used to knowI slam the door behind me shut
It hurts too much to care
"Don't slam the door!"
"Shut the fuck up!"
I'm in misery
That stupid song
Yes, I know what I did
Yes, I know that you're angry
Yes, I know you want to be friends, maybe
I don't know what to think of you
I'm supposed to protect her, I'm her older brother
I'm not trying to make you miserable
I know you aren't trying to or are you?
Well let me say something
When you send those lyrics
You didn't have to cut me off
Pretend it never happened and we were nothing
I don't even need your love but you treat me like a stranger
That felt so rough
You may think I'm lying
But I'm not
It hurts like hell
And it's all regrettable
You're a dear friend to me
And it hurts to hear the lyrics
Because I know it's probably all true
I guess I really am somebody you used to know
Hidden ConfusionI'm so undeserving of you
I didn't even give you a chance...
You're my best friend
And yes, I'm very aware that you have feeling for me
I had an open opportunity
You even asked
I never answered
And I ended up going back to him
I don't like you in the way that you like me
I don't share the same feeling
But I should have given you a chance
Maybe my feelings would have changed
The least I can do is give you an answer
I'm drowning in my bottomless guilt
And the pain of my heart is endless
It's being ripped out
And left for some sort of beast to take it away
I need to see you again
But I don't know how to present myself to you
You've been there for me
And what have I given you?
Pain and the suspense of an answer
I don't know how you can deal with me
Or still love me the way you do
I've been hurting ever since that day
But I just don't know what to do anymore
It all hurts so much
I guess I never realized h
So alone pt. 1A cold breeze nips at my nose, and suddenly I open my eyes
I look ahead, I'm laying down, all I see is a moonlit sky above me
I slowly rise up to see where I was
I'm sitting in a boat...
A boat? This isn't right...I don't enjoy boats...
A raging sea is at both sides of me
A white speck of something falls from the sky
A...white, rose petal?
Where am I? Why am I here?
"Please miss, lay back down."
The Deep voice startled me
I had no idea where I was...
"Just lay down. We're almost there."
"Wait! Who are you?"
The man stayed silent
He was just a shadow...I couldn't see his face...
I was starting to get a shiver up my spine
A shiver of fear
Or just the cold...
Suddenly, the movement of the boat gets a bit rough, and we stop
"We're where? Where are we? Why am I here, why did you take me here? Answer me!"
Again, the man stayed silent
I felt a hand across my wrist, and was jerked out of the boat
There were petals all over me
I was in a p
The Ending ChapterDressed in white
Fancy swirls and designs
A long trail behind her
Father by her left side
Walking her down the aisle
Her new life-long partner waiting at the end
Her father kisses her forehead and takes a seat in a pew
Trying to hide the tears from the pain in his heart
The pain of letting her baby girl grow up
The end holds a new life
With a new partner
Who shares ever-lasting love
An unbreakable bond
The officiant talks and talks
She doesn't listen to much, for she's busy thinking about what's going on around her
She tunes in, just in time for her to say "I do"
She does love him
She's been ready for this moment her entire life
2 simple words
He says the same
Everybody cries at the official kiss
Hours later they're in celebration
A car pulls up to take them on their honeymoon
"Are you ready to go?" he asks
"Yes" she says
She says goodbyes, thank you's, and I love you's to her family and friends
She steps into the car
Giving her father one last look
I'm in too deepI'm sinking
Deeper and deeper
Into a place, oh so familiar
The last bit of good, happy ground, is breaking
I am soon to fall
Into the bottomless pit of despair and misery
The darkness consumes me
The more I fall
The more I start to think of how I ended up in this predicament
The pain that I never let out
The pain that I kept concealed
The tears I never cried out, left in my eyes
The fears I never overcame
The things I never said...
Oh, dear God
I should have listened to you
I should have talked to you
I should have talked to my parents
Along with all of the others who cared for my safety
The one's who tried helping me out of my depression
Keeping me from going completely insane
It's too late
I'm sinking into a pool
A pool of blood and darkness
Now living in the misery I was born to live in
I regret it all
This is not the way I want to live
But I can't escape this demon life
I'm in too deep
YoelxReader [One-Shot] ComfortYoel and I have been best friends since the since the sixth grade, and for the longest time I've had a crush on him, but I say anything because I didn't want to ruin our friendship together.
I walked into the lunchroom frustrated from my friends fight earlier and flopped into my seat. Yoel came soon after and sat down next to me, like usual. He looked at me and grinned, waiting for me to do it back, but when I didn't he frowned.
"What's wrong (first)?" I just glance at him, then at our two friends, Sebastion and Kyle, who come and sit at our table ignoring each other. He makes a face, knowing that they fought. (as they do a lot) Yoel exchanged looks with them and sighed. Not long after they came, so did the rest of our group. Jesse, Devin, Tyler and Naiomi."What happened?" Yoel whispered in my ear. I blushed at his sudden closeness, then mentally slap myself because right now isn't the time to be thinking about that.
"Last period, Sebastion was having trouble with our assignment,
Dancing Shadows Preview :)Chapter 33: Rain
'Rain, those little water drops that pour from the sky in a trickle at a time or even in droves. It was once said that when it rains, the angels in the heavens are crying, or that the higher powers are cleansing the earth of evil using rain. Many interpretations can be made, but sometimes rain gives the dreadful feeling of what is to come.'
Ruined, everything is ruined. I should have seen it coming. The moment I thought everything has finally come together, I should have known that it wouldn't take long to fall apart. I thought I finally put the past behind me, the rape, the beating, the screaming, the torture, everything, but I didn't think of what was truly in the background waiting to surface the moment I thought I left everything behind me. Why does this happen to me? Why is it hard for me to have a happy ending? Am I not allowed to have one day of sunshine? One day of happiness? One day of knowing that I had nothing to worry about? Am I allowe
Evil....or Greatness?The Master of Murder was minding his own business, just walking down a street lane, but then he feels a strange mind wipe. He begins to see nothing but red, he begins to stir. Soon, there was only the color of red, then he sees blends of shades of blood, his symbol appears on one side and it blends with the forbidden symbol, the Red Swastika. The sounds were deep turbulences of echoing screams and fog winds.......then, a man in a black SS uniform appears behind him, laying his own back with the demon's back. It was the German Chancellor, Adolf Hitler, the nightmare of the Jewish Race, the evils of the undergrounds of Germany, the demon of the men he has haunted in their dreams, with genocide, indescribable evil. Fred knew, the bastard, he knew he had come to make a secret deal, but he also knew to do one thing, deny, deny, deny.
"Guten Abend, Herr Thompson." Hitler spoke. He tipped his hat as a sign of greeting. Fred spit out his cigar and it fell into the darkness of Fred's trance. "I
Too Quick to Judge- Mange x Kavron1) The mid-day sun of the late winter brought no warmth. Bloodied paws padded through the Wasteland earth, leaving behind faint traces of the lifesource they had once provided some poor soul. The visage of some twisted creature of these lands had appeared on a small crest nearer to Eden than most dogs of his kind dare do. But this was no ordinary dog.
Mange stared at the tall gates before him. The blood upon his pelt belonged to some poor creature that had the misfortune of being around when the hungry lad had been prowling. Mostly dried now, Mange paid it no heed. His wiry coat was often spotted with the stuff. This was further than the Wolfhound mix usually went. In fact this was the furthest south he had ever been. A natural denizen to the less densely populated ravines that lay north of the city, he hardly ventured within the city let alone south of it.
2) Kavron was bounding down the walls of Eden, patrolling the area near the healthy dogs' safe haven. It was mid afternoon and he
Daily Logs 3-8-14I. Darhad and Zef bid farewell
II. Everyone bids farewell to Shir at his going-away party
III. Jackson has a powerful need for brain bleach once Kyle is through with him
IV. Molly tells Terrence he should leave her, but he refuses
V. Vekal asks Webb to go to Gella Nor
VI. Adrian and Gary hang out
Darhad: *on her last shift in the Legacy’s Engineering, checking a running process on a console*
Zef: *stiiill looking sick, but his head feels less cloudy* ... *when he's in Engineering to bring some PADDs or other small stuff back, he spots Darhad and walks over instantly, since it's kinda time to say goodbye* Hey! Good to see you.
Darhad: *looks up from her console* Oh, Ensign Sanders. *small smile* How are you? *becaue you’ve been questioned now, haven’t you?* *looks him over*
Zef: *slight smile* Well, I'm still sick. But I think I'm a bit better. *better than when you visited me in Sickbay and we talked about the JT iss
Roles ReversedIt was a chilly spring afternoon in Deviantart City, and Ruby and Sapphire had just returned from a mission. The mission hadn’t gone so well, and Ruby had already taken a beating during the mission. He already knew Topaz was going to be furious, but he had to be strong. He never wanted anyone to know that he was beaten. Walking down the hallway to Topaz’s office, Ruby was trying not to limp. He always acted like he was fine, but in all reality, he was in a lot of pain. Sapphire had been pretty roughed up during the mission as well, but she knew she’d be okay after a good night’s rest. The two walked into Topaz’s office and debriefed their mission.
“The mission was a failure, sir. Both of us were no match for our enemies,” Ruby said. He stood strong with Sapphire in the room, but he could already feel the sting of Topaz’s hand against his face.
“So, what you’re saying is that our enemies are one step further in their plan,
Hawthorne part 11~ Between Sisters...Between Sisters...
Vanessa was still crying loudly into her pillow after Christian had left...
Valerie was awoken out of her sleep by the muffled whimpers of her sister. "Van? Whats tha mahhhter?" She said with a yawn. Rubbing the sleep out of her eyes she threw her feet over the side of her bed. Trying to shake the sleepiness she stood and stretched. "Are you crying?"
Vanessa suddenly sat up wiping the tears from her cheeks and eyes "No I wasn't crying... I just I had something in my eyes.... Ok I was crying... but its not important I guess..."
"Please Vanessa you could never lie to me and if you say it's not important it's probably because it is!" She managed to find a little spot to snuggle into Van's side. "Now come on if you tell me what's bothering you I..I will tell you what's been bothering me? " Valerie pressed a hand to Vanessa's tear stained face. "Come on tell ol' Val all about it."
Vanessa frowned... "Why whats bothering you??... its not 'him' is it??... he hurt you didn't
3-5-14 ~ Incoming transmission.Zef is in his quarters, wearing comfortable civvies because he's off-duty ("medical certificate") and feeling sick, finding the silence and being alone again odd and a bit creepy, but not as much as yesterday - staying out of sickbay seems to work so far, and that's good, because it allows him to feel a tiny bit less insane. However, he still startles at the beeping sound of his console, which is indicating one incoming transmission from another Starfleet vessel.
Zef: *looks up at the console and hesitates, needing a moment to calm down, but after some seconds he puts PADD and tool down and gets up from the floor* Computer... accept the transmission. *heads for the console and, when seeing who's calling, starts an insecure but honestly glad slight smile* Papa.
Cpt. Sanders: Zefram. How are you? *worries, displaced by an upright posture and an unsmiling face, but his voice is softened after all; it's also a plainly rhetorical question, beca
Zef and Rorin ~ First Contact[For this scene the lounge looks almost normal, though partly like a terran Victorian garden with fountains here and here.]
Zef: *heads for the lounge for lunch, when he arrives he notices it's crowded, so he stops at the entrance and considers for a while... and finally enters, walks over to a replicator and keys in some codes, stressed but also glad that he's made it this far*
Rorin: *enters the lounge at nearly the same time, also intending to have lunch and thus heads for the same replicator*
Zef: *gsh, why? Aren't there other free rep- no, obviously not, it's crowded* *grabs the tray and turns*
Rorin: *small confident smile* Hello. *though he steps aside to make room*
Zef: Erm. Hi. *walks past Rorin and eyes him, stops and waits if there's more... superior Officer, so...*
Rorin: *doesn't say more and turns to the replicator to get himself lunch, as he finds the other ones' nervousness a bit unpleasant*
Zef: *frowns briefly and when Rorin turns away, he heads for the nearest corner
The death of the cheshire catBravery and I are not on intimate terms
My natural curiosity is tampered with caution
Thus I live long
But now, ignoring my instinct to flee or fear
I speak the truth with out reguard to consequence
Your courage deserves no less
You've suffered great pain, and you've caused some
You've endured great feelings of grief and guilt
But you will be tested on a more wretching anguish, Alice
There is worse to come
You and this Red Queen
Cannot both survive
You're two parts of the same-
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