A Letter to Life

Dear Life,

Stop! Just stop!
End it all! End it all!
Why must you cause so much suffering?
To me
To my friends
To my heart
It's like you've taken me over
A dark spirit
Dark blood
Pulsing through my veins
Why?

Are you proud to do this?
Do you enjoy my pain?
Why can't you do anything good
Just for once
Why can't you just learn
That I control my life
And it's not just a person on puppet strings
Being moved around by some evil spirit

I didn't do anything wrong
I may have slipped up a few times
I've tried to be a good girl
But it's all just becoming a distant memory
...
Just sending a letter to one of my worst enemies
My best friend
My family
All in one spirit
Just a figure that corrupted my heart

Sometimes I think things I shouldn't
The thought of death
Killing someone
Telling someone I hate them
My heart says let youre feelings out
But my brain says just keep quiet, and no one gets hurt
I decieve myself
And it's not worth all the suffering

So please, life
Do me a favor
And get better